There's quite alot I want to say to you girls. Everytime something happens, this feeling of self-pity wells up within me.
feeling left out? yea perhaps, sucks being the last one to know everything, watching things go on like an outsider, not playing a part in anything.
But there's a price to pay for everything I guess. noone's fault anw. Just gotta suck it up! my burning body needs damn alot of rest this moment
FIGHT FOR OUR LIVES COME ON
my eyes are so heavy-lidded, but i cant stop thinking about Rag. Explains the massive emails & the numerous phone calls.
why some people must make my life so difficult? BUT HEY COME ON CLAIRE NEO. I AM THE NEW AGE WOMAN. FIGHTING SPIRIT NUMBER ONE!!!!! the more you step on me, the more im going to prove you wrong! ME NO NEED YOU!
yes im this weird. pity my poor boyfriend haha!
& here's the ugly truth girl
so yesterday ended on a pretty horrid note. I'm really pretty embarrassed at what a mess i was, but at that moment i couldnt hold back.
there were at least 4 in a row of 2 days, having me to dig it out from them, to realise oh they made other plans. i think its only fair that you had informed me before booking your flights? before applying for a summer internship? before applying for an internship? & why did each of you have to wait for me to ask you? why couldn't you tell me yourself? i think i would have felt better if you had considered my feelings in any teeny little way at all. you mean you cant spare a second to tell me even after you finalised your plans? Why?
Sorry i dont buy the "oops sorry i forgot to tell you" or "sorry i didnt get a chance to tell you". Come on, if you really wanted to, it wouldn't have been that difficult. Don't take my 'nice-ness' for granted.
but i guess, that's the ugly truth. who will care when it's not their project? who will care if you're nothing to them? everyone's mercenary as such, we're all caught in this rat race, fighting for ourselves. no point stopping in your tracks & thinking how your actions actually affect others. no thinking how sometimes, friendships, ties & responsibility can be equally worth your time. money is really not everything....right?
but still, i walked away comforted that I've seen who my true friends are, comforted that regardless, i know i will always have this bunch to fall back on. so i still say i'm blessed. & this is only going to make me stronger, i promise.
&... i really have the most supportive & understanding boyfriend i can ever ask for, thank you so much baby:)
so maybe, the truth's not that ugly afterall. & its still worth believing that life's more than just getting good internships, money & prestige.
just woke up! but feeling as tired as ever:( I'm just like a battery that can never get fully charged.
come on claire! exams are in 2 weeks!
i've moved!:) determined to start blogging again, how else to remember what's happening! http://claireneo@onsugar.com
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let's start all over again
i think the main reason why i decided to change over to onsugar's for the fact so i can finally have a blog named after myself.
deliriousheels has been stuck with me for so long, but seriously, what on earth is deliriousheels? from here, i really need to promise myself to blog frequently!
anyway things have been moving so fast thus far, i dont even know where to start updating! so here're just random photos taken from all over the place, from really donkey years ago:)
resonaid
and to my horror, i realise i still haven't upload my birthday photos from my camera!!!
well perhaps one day i should do a proper post on my party, since it really does deserve to be jotted down and etched into my head. 4 months late i know, but ehhh better late than never!:)
oh wow, now. thanks for clarifying it up. im now a domineering person/girlfriend.
bastards.
may karma kick you back in the ass.
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it's been more often than not that I've been doubting the decisions made.
Every, decision.
It's like being stranded in the middle of nowhere, now I dont even feel like going back.
i was looking forward to the next semester, but not anymore i think. nothing's going to be in comfort zone anymore, nothing's going to be the same. The familar faces share stories I can perhaps never relate to anymore, i can smile but it's just, not the same.
if i could turn back time, would I do the same?
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when you gossip about someone i love so much, the anger i feel amplifies.
you guys have absolutely no right to talk about any one of us or even our relationship when you know nothing about us. if you have any bloody comments or sth you like to snigger, i rather you ask it in my face
dont act like a child come one. how old are you all? GROW UP PLEASE FOR GOODNESS.
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SO UPSET:(
this wait is excruciating:(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
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